I Hope So
Written by ~ Quiet ~

Im nothing but a clone
With an inside packed with stuffing and an outside made of stone
When you're a victim of your own and you're falling from home
and all u have left is hope u have 2
choices, you can hit rock bottom, or grab the rope

My feet are leading the way my limbs are disconnected from my
brain and I cant tie the strings back
together to tell my hands to pull myself up out of my grave

The world is a blur, flying by in twirls of black and grey swirls
Theres no sign of a red or a blue or a green or even a dark purple
I watch that blackbird fly thru the window and wonder where he goes
Cant help but notice im the pot of coal at the end of the dark
spectrums rainbow

Everything iv loved has been stolen right from under my nose
and anything iv decided to believe in has
been sold instead of grown
I look all around theres no sound no one seems remotely close
My heads in the clouds if my eyes could leave the ground id know im not alone
When you never learned to see it hard to know where you're supposed to go
Run into the sun or snow visit with the warmth or cold, sink or float
Sometimes if u wanna breathe 1st u need to choke and if u wanna grow u need to break bones
And when u have nothing left but hope, u have more than enough to hold

When time decides to move slow I notice that's when I tend to grow
When the window of opportunity is closed that's when the sun comes to melt the snow
The clouds part over the house the treetops shine and Im short of breath
The bird opens his mouth to shout his lines and I envy those front steps
In order to hold onto hope, I need to learn to let go
That's when the bird forgets how to fly freezes time and learns how to float

And when the wise man closed his eyes to recite every word hes ever spoken
Im gonna grab hope by the throat, and choke it
i was almost home when my legs snapped iv never felt so low
i was so close i can still go
im gonna take the strength from every word i never spoke
im staggering i never shoulda stood up
and it shatters me i never know how much is enough
batter up in the box the ladder will collapse if you dont give
all four legs enough trust

my broken footprints leave a trail to follow in the dirt
hope someone stumbles upon them before theyre swallowed by the
earth and im gone forever
and the last strand keeping me tethered to reality is severed
and when you have nothing left but hope you can give up or
grow
pick your poison flick the syringe and measure

inject and go to sleep

please dont accept me for me

if theres something you need to say open your mouth and scream
if i have one piece of real advice its if you ever get your hands on hope squeeze

iv conquered the dark killed the light tug a war with life my enemy is inside
iv tried iv cried iv lied to loved ones and seen the pain thats trapped in their eyes
and i told myself never again and i molded myself into a better him
then i melted back down into a puddle and i stumbled and i
scraped the bottom of the bin again
fall back to the tracks same old planks back to the bad and the same old train
back to the cracks in my name on the wall i fall i crawl i cant escape my fate

im not a good person and i hate it
i know that im worthless and i cant change it
if i had a purpose id make a picture perfect for a person then
help them live it after i paint it
i can change i know as i age i grow my brain will mold into
who iv always wanted to become
i have enough rope to hold on to hope

i dont know where to go all i have left is hope is that enough
to hold i hope so
i dont wanna let it go iv got it by the throat
im gonna squeeze until it chokes i cant help it im so selfish
im so cold

i need to tighten my grip i need to watch the blood drip
every second it slips its so delicate so fragile so infinite
i think i might be sick every string has been clipped
grab Hope by the lips tell her thank you and deliver her
last...

i dont know where to go all i have left is hope is that enough
to hold i hope so

i dont wanna let it go iv got it by the throat its all iv got
left to hold im so cold

i think i might be sick every string has been clipped
grab Hope by the lips tell her thank you and deliver her last...

kiss

~Quiet~